我的一生在上帝手中(中英文双语/音频)

我的一生在上帝手中

—一名高中生的受洗见证

文 | 邱以琳
《生命与信仰》第42期

音频为Lily Sun 姊妹朗读:

我很高兴能在这个特殊的日子里受洗。今天，我想表明我作为一个基督徒的信仰。我相信圣父、圣子和圣灵三位一体的真神。我相信上帝创造了一切。我相信上帝是至高无上的，祂统治着世界，每天都在我们的生活中工作。我相信人是按照神的形象造的，但却因悖逆神而堕入罪中，世人都犯了罪，世上充满邪恶，就如罗马书3:10–11所说，“没有义人，连一个也没有。没有明白的，没有寻求神的。”我相信耶稣基督，祂是上帝的独生子，是完全的神和完全的人。祂来到世上拯救像我这样的罪人，祂活出了圣洁完美的生命，在十字架上替罪人受死，成了神的挽回祭，使我能够得称为义。以赛亚书53:5说，“哪知祂为我们的过犯受害，为我们的罪孽压伤。因祂受的刑罚我们得平安，因祂受的鞭伤我们得医治。” 而且，基督不仅为我的罪死在十字架上，祂还在第三天从死里复活！祂是上帝的儿子，以大能战胜了死亡，成为全地的主。因着我愿意认罪悔改、归信耶稣，我得以被称为义，被神收纳，被圣灵充满，与神和好。

现在请允许我见证神是如何在我生命中工作的。我在一个基督徒家庭中长大，从小就认识神。当我还是个小女孩的时候，我全心全意地信靠神，我曾经与神有过如此亲密和甜蜜的关系。但是随着时间的推移，当我试图控制和管理自己的生活时，我离祂越来越远。我的自我中心引我走上了一条黑暗的道路。每天想的都是“我要”！我想要好成绩，想要得到同龄人的认可。我想让人们爱我，满足我的需求。我想要永远不会离开我的朋友。但是，无论我的朋友们如何努力让我振作起来，我总是觉得自己还不够好。无论我收到多少爱，我的心仍然得不到满足.…..每当友谊出了问题，每当我没有达到我的标准，我总是陷入羞耻、伤害和恐惧的风暴中。在我最孤独、最绝望的时候，我没有其他人可以求助，只有上帝。我没有其他人可以哭泣，只有上帝。当我最终向祂呼求时，祂奇迹般地改变了我的想法和我的心。祂把敬虔的人放在我身边，引导我更亲近祂。祂打开我的心，让我更多地阅读圣经，因此我得到勇气、爱和信心，能够坚持面对每一天。我曾经总是抱怨，为什么神没有回应我的祷告，让我变得更聪明或更强大；为什么祂允许我的生活中出现这么多困难，而其他人的生活却如此轻松和快乐。但是通过所有的困难和挣扎，神与我同在。我需要的是耐心和信心。我意识到，事实上每个人都在面对各种挑战，如果没有上帝，我们将永远迷失。只有在耶稣基督里，我终于找到了一位深爱我的朋友，祂选择为我死在十字架上。我找到了一位辅导者，祂不仅完全理解我正在经历的事情，而且还不断地在我的生命中工作，使我能够荣耀祂。祂在保护我，引导我，训练我，使我能够变得更像基督。

最重要的是，祂承诺祂永远不会离开我或抛弃我。”耶和华是我的牧者，我必不至缺乏”。(诗篇23:1）这是我父母在我小时候把我献给上帝时送给我的经文。今天，我可以自豪地宣称它对我是真实的。我知道，每当我向上帝祈祷时，我可以把我心中的一切告诉祂，并相信祂将带领我度过那些艰难的时刻。尽管生活充满挑战，每天仍然是一场战斗，但我不再感到孤独。今天我将接受洗礼，我要向世界宣告我是神的孩子。罗马书8:15说：“你们所受的不是奴仆的心，仍旧害怕；所受的乃是儿子的心，因此我们呼叫：阿爸！父！”我非常感恩祂拣选了我，让我成为属神的人。我知道我的未来掌握在我天上的阿爸父手中，祂的爱永不止息。

最后，今天也是我爸爸的生日! 我想告诉爸爸：请不要不断地为我担心，因为我的一生在上帝手中！我知道你的生日对你来说并不总是快乐的事情，因为那也是你父亲去世的日子。但从今天起，我希望我的洗礼能让喜乐和希望代替那些悲伤的回忆，让复活和永生代替死亡。

邱以琳受洗后与父母亲合影

以琳受洗前在教会作见证

I Will Be OK Because God’s Got Me

By Evan­ge­line Chiu

Audio by Evan­ge­line Chiu:

Hap­py East­er every­one! My name is Evan­ge­line Chiu and I’m so excit­ed to be bap­tized on this spe­cial day. Today, I want to pro­fess my faith as a Chris­t­ian. I believe in the trin­i­ty, that God is 3 in one, Father, Son, and Holy Spir­it. I believe that God cre­at­ed every­thing. And I believe that God is sov­er­eign, rul­ing over the world and work­ing in our lives every sin­gle day. I believe that man was made in the image of God but fell into sin and became so sin­ful and so filled with evil that not even one was “right­eous, no, not one; no one under­stands; no one seeks for God.” (Romans 3: 10–11) I believe in Jesus Christ, who is God’s one and only Son, who is ful­ly God and ful­ly man. He came to save sin­ners like me, and earned my jus­ti­fi­ca­tion by liv­ing a per­fect life and dying on the cross as a sac­ri­fice of atone­ment. Isa­iah 53:51 says he “was pierced for our trans­gres­sions, he was crushed for our iniq­ui­ties; the pun­ish­ment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.” How­ev­er, Christ not only died on the cross for my sins, but he also rose from the dead on the third day! The pow­er­ful Son of God has con­quered death and rules as Lord over all. Through repent­ing of my sins and believ­ing in Jesus, I received his gifts of jus­ti­fi­ca­tion, adop­tion, becom­ing filled with the Holy Spir­it, and enter­ing into a new covenant with God.

Now please allow me to tes­ti­fy about how God is work­ing in my life. I grew up in a Chris­t­ian fam­i­ly and knew about him from a very young age. I used to have such a close and sweet rela­tion­ship with God when I trust­ed Him whole­heart­ed­ly as a lit­tle girl. But as time went on, as I tried to con­trol and run my life on my own, I grew far­ther and far­ther away from him. My self­ish ways led me down a dark path. My dai­ly life is all about what I want. I want­ed good grades and approval from my peers. I want­ed peo­ple to love me and sat­is­fy my needs. I want­ed friends who would nev­er leave me. But no mat­ter how hard my friends tried to cheer me up, I would always feel like I wasn’t enough. No mat­ter how much love I received, my heart was still not sat­is­fied… When­ev­er a friend­ship went wrong, when­ev­er I didn’t live up to my stan­dards, I always fell into the storm of shame, hurt, and fear. At my loneli­est time and the most des­per­ate point, I had no one else to turn to, but God. I had no one else to cry to, but God. And when I final­ly cried out to Him, He mirac­u­lous­ly changed my thoughts and my heart. He put god­ly peo­ple around me to lead me clos­er to Him. He opened my heart so that I read my Bible more and so I got courage, love and faith to con­tin­ue every sin­gle day. I used to always com­plain about why He didn’t answer my prayers by mak­ing me smarter or stronger; why He allowed so many hard­ships in my life while every­one else’s lives were so easy and hap­py! But through all the hard­ships and strug­gles, God is with me. I just has to be patient. I real­ize that in fact every­one is deal­ing with some­thing and that with­out God, we will always be lost. Only in Jesus Christ did I final­ly find a Friend who loves me so deep that He chose to die on the cross for me. I found a Coun­selor who not only total­ly under­stands what I am going through but is also work­ing in and through me for his Glo­ry. He is pro­tect­ing me, guid­ing me, train­ing me and enabling me to become more like Christ. Most impor­tant­ly, He promised that He would nev­er leave me nor for­sake me. “The Lord is my shep­herd, I shall not want.” (Psalm 23:1) This is the verse my par­ents gave me when I was ded­i­cat­ed to God as a young child. Today, I can proud­ly claim that it’s true to me. I know that when­ev­er I pray to God, I can tell him every­thing on my mind and trust that He is going to lead me through those hard times. Even though life is hard and every day is still a bat­tle, I don’t feel alone any­more. Today I will be bap­tized, I will pro­claim to the world that I am a child of God. Romans 8:15 says, “The Spir­it you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spir­it you received brought about your adop­tion to son­ship. And by him we cry, ‘Abba, Father.’” I am so grate­ful that He chose me and called me to be His. I know that my Abba in heav­en holds my future in his hands and nev­er runs out of love.

Final­ly, today is also my dad’s birth­day, I want to tell him that he doesn’t need to con­stant­ly wor­ry about me any­more and that I will be ok because God’s got me. I know that your birth­day has not always been a hap­py event because it is also the day that your father passed away, but I hope my bap­tism will replace the sad mem­o­ries with joy and hope, the thought of death with res­ur­rec­tion and eter­nal life.